Oh the woes of period cramps! But I refuse to Cherie it!

Also felt a heavy sense of regret that I didn't use the club library as often as I should have during this holiday. Actually, I never even went in till today and found out the ton of fun I've skipped out on. What an ass! I'll go kick myself... some other time.

Something else ground to bone the fact that I waste away my free time in idleness which is not a good thing: I saw a P106 junior Su Venn at the Farmasi in Damansara Specialist Centre doing internship during her post-Sem3 hols. Sigh. Why didn't I do that too? Maybe cuz I dunno how and lazy to go find out.

I long for fulfillment.

That sense of gratification that comes about knowing you're doing something worthwhile with your life. It's sad how much of my youth I throw away in disregard. Sitting at home really doesn't make anything better. I don't do ANYTHING that produces ANY results! Frankly, I could do with some change.

It's not the boredom. If I'm bored, heck, there's always TV or books or computers. It's how other people have a worthwhile job to do which makes them money and/or experience so they're really actually making good use of their own time.

Sigh. I suppose I should just be grateful for all this free time I have now instead of whining about it. I wish I didn't whine so much. I even whine about whining. Wth who does that?? I bet when I start working and start making my own money, I'd be whining about how much free time I don't have.

Have to kick myself one of these days.