Look! It's 1am and I'm still awake! Oooohoohooo! Bad girl mummy's gonna scold ja!

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so empty-headed and that I have so much more to offer people instead of always thinking on the surface of things and never really the whole iceberg under the water.

I lack depth, in other words. And I wish I didn't.

What is my purpose in life? But then again, what is YOUR own purpose in life, dear reader? Why dyou think God put you in this world. Yea yea, life is just one big test to see how faithful you are to Him (Muslim perspective) but I'm sure we realise we are all put in this world for a reason and that reason will affect one another and others.

Why was I put on this earth in this particular country in this particular city with this particular network of friends I know and this particular body and character and personality and how will all of this affect what will and what won't happen to me (and to other people) in the future?

Oh dear. I've gone all philosophical. Bite me. It's late. And I'm still up. And the father will ring his beautiful wake up call voice early early 9am while I'm still dreaming of Prince Charming. Sigh.

So I guess the point of this here post here is basically to whine about my boring little self and how I know I'm so boring but without actually doing anything about it because I just love whining as some of you might already know and are all to eager to agree. Another pointless post from a person trying to find her point.

Tonight I heard the most powerful amazing voice being belled out in front of me in a dimly lit upper stairs Attic. Also it came from a very tiny girl of small proportions.

I was moved.

The songs she played out for us had very honest lyrics that I would kill to just be able to write. Simple, straight to the point. It's how I like things lah. All those wishy washy lyrics that go round and round make no sense to me but is nice all the same. Heh. That's just my opinion lah and you know how brainless I am when it comes to deciphering lyrics so I'll just say I loved her voice and the style of her playing very the much.

Why am I writing this? Because I play the guitar. And I have nothing to show for it. No skill. No songwriting. A few random chords. A song here and there. Heck, my so-called apprentice is playing far better than I am. I start up a few months then slack cuz lazy to practice then I get nowhere. Wanna take the easy way out and blame it on me naturally lacking any skill? Caaannn.... But easy isn't always right.

Aih. Another whining but without any real cause to change.
So really. To restate a point. What do I really have to offer other people in the do-goodness, make'em appreciative side of life? Point to ponder. And perhaps if not too lazy yet, point to work on and consider life goals and more importantly the wants.

Wah I sound like a Sims2 game already! Haha.