Regarding the whole it's over, graduation, work, the whole adult-life shebang waiting for us just round the corner, well, I was afraid of days back in KL. Was. So much so that I was absolutely dreading the circumstances in KL.
But now I've come to accept it (can't be a coward all your life) and with this acceptance came about anger and aggravation.
And the whole fucking it's bloody over so let's get this bloody thing done with so let me go home and sit on my couch in Damansara and watch Astro till my ears and my eyes bleed and my legs sore due to inactivity.
In that sense, yes, in that crooked way twisted mental sense, yes, I am looking forward to settling back in KL. Looking forward to getting this whole graduation hooha done with. How pleasantly surprising I should feel this way.
It's ending, that Glasgow phase of my life is ending and every inch of me wants to shout out, kick back resist like a small child throwing a tantrum at the supermarket but alas I am inferior to the forces that be that control the way the universe rolls on.
And roll on it will. Unravelling little fun size bits and pieces of hooha that make up this life - work, family, work... where the fuck will the friends go? Where the fuck will the freedom to do whatever the hell tickles our fancy at that particular moment go? What is to become of us in the future? What about our happiness? Our sense of contentment? What of them?
Fucking hell the future is scary. I just wanna lay in my nicely made bed all pink and cream (draped with cute aquatic creatures) and what? do what? Nothing at all.
2 comments:
aiyo working life not so bad la. ok ok imagine this! yo:
you work in a pharmacy all day (I think la) but instead of working you are slacking off! chatting with your colleagues in the back room. then when customer come they will ring a bell then you come out. then you can say to them: that drug will cause kidney failure you want ah? really ah? then you go back in and watch tv.
in other words not much different from school life la.
heh
then have to make new friends to chat with in the back room.
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